To Substack or not to Substack
Is that the question?
It’s been quite awhile since I’ve written anything here on Substack. I’ve run into a dilemma about what to share. Who knew that much of what I posted on Substack in the past and much I could write about now, would end up in chapters for this new book I’m working on?
This desire however to be here and also make time for the book creates its own kind of conflict. But internal conflict is something I’m use to.
Recently I read this quote by Martha Graham:
I have wondered about this unrest, Graham describes my entire life. I have been curious about my disposition. This searching I cannot shake. The amount of time and energy this wanting for whatever “it” is takes from me.
For years I have questioned the way I have always been as far back into childhood as I can remember. I have questioned this because the constant push to keep creating, growing, and changing although satisfying, also comes at a cost as I wrestle with dissatisfaction, exhaustion, and insecurity.
When I read this quote, it offered an explanation for what I never understood about myself, one influenced by a creative edge that needs constant expression.
At this late stage in my life, thanks to Graham, I am going to accept the yearning and the unease that churns within me. Both are true.
I wouldn’t want it any other way.
With you! I'm burned out on all the marketing, scams, memberships—everything but writing my novels, which I am back into and ignoring the rest.
It’s a dilemma that afflicts many of us, me included. The need, passion and desire at the same time the exhaustion, questioning, and burnout. So much is required of us in the act of creating.