By the time I hit high school, I felt hemmed in as much by New York’s pressure to succeed, as I did by the blocks and blocks of tall skyscrapers reaching high above me, obliterating the sun by day and the moon at night. During my senior year while my peers talked about their exit to colleges, I let them know I was heading to California. When they asked why, my mind flipped as I tried to conjure a lie, but I always offered the truth. “I’m going because of ‘Mod Squad,” I told them, slightly embarrassed for admitting that a TV show was directing my objective.
If only we knew when we were younger that we all lacked confidence. It was a game of who disguised it better.
You are amazing. This is a perfect follow up to Hannah’s and my conversation this am. Great writing. . Thank you